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Today I recieved my first letter from our sponsered child in Uganda. <3 Nothing made me smile more than to see his hopes and dreams written on a piece a paper. The special drawings that he drew for us. It made our sponsership real....Love my photo of the day for today<3

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I took Holly with me to pick up the kids from school....She was missing them all today...She wasn't the only one =(

A Good Dose of Nothing

Christmas is behind us, and we are already 4 days into the new year.

2012.

The kids have went back to school today, and we are slowly getting back into our busy lifestyle. This past couple of weeks was an absolute blessing to me. James took off work, the kids were home, and we spent lots of time together...doing nothing. Nothing can mean lots of things to different people. But our week of nothing included playing games, cooking together, snuggling on the couch with blankets, watching movies, having fun, laughing. A good dose of doing nothing together is needed for all families...in my honest opinion. We didn't get a lot of things done around the house....like we initially planned....but we realized that we made memories. And that is the best think I can think of to check off my To Do list. =)

We have a  pretty long To Do list....but today, I am thankful that we didn't mark much off of it this past couple of weeks....and we spent some quality time together. =) The list isn't going any where. But our kids are growing up...right before our eyes. Time well spent<3

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My new car tag....that the boys got me for Christmas =) James put it on the van today;) Looks Good... Thanks Guys! This is for you, Macey, "It's Great to be a part of the Tribe!" ;)                               

Day 2/366

Today was the first "sign" of snow....Macey and Cade were so excited!! They put on their coats, and hats and headed outside....=)

Project 365? plus one....

This is something I have wanted to do for a few years, and just didn't think that I would follow through with it....But this year, I have decided to do it. And I am going to post my daily picture on my blog...a sort of accountability thing for me =) I plan on taking one photograph every day, that "wraps up" our day, so to speak. I plan on monthly, compiling all of the pictures into an album, and at the end of the year, I hope to have one picture for each day of 2012. A personal goal for me. I hope to capture some of our every day moments. I am going to allow cell phone pictures as well because I know there are sometimes that I may not be able to use my camera, but I always have my cell phone. Trying to make this little personal goal of mine as reachable as possible. So for the first day of 2012, what better picture to post....that of my church. Starting the new year of right. Worshipping our Lord <3

Where do You want to be 5 Years from now?

I have been to a couple of interviews here lately in my search for the perfect job...lol...and this is a question that every one seems to ask.

Where do you see yourself 5 years from now?

and it really got to me. It was during an interview that I had today. I didn't post anything about this interview, or the previous 2 I have had. Because I just don't "feel" like I am where I am supposed to be..

.I have never been closer to God than during the days I spent in Haiti this past January....and during that time I know what He said to me...He called me "out of nursing". So for me to continuously work as a nurse, kills me. I have bills, and nursing is what pays them. But I am SO unhappy there... I want more than anything to be doing what my heart knows I should be doing....but this thing called fear. uncertainty. lack of faith. Seem to keep my feet planted right where I am. So frustrating. I sometimes wonder how I spent so many years, just doing what I do. Working, sleeping, taking kids to all of the places they had to be, and never think about God's plan for me. Never consider that I maybe should be doing something Bigger. Not so self centered. Putting others first. Sharing His Love with those who haven't met Him yet. <3

I honestly don't think it is a coincidence that I have applied for 5 or so nursing jobs...and haven't gotten one of them. He knows where He wants me. I wish he would just make this path a little easier. I think my health situation this summer was a wake up call to a lot of things....He IS in control. But I just want the answers now. I am not a patient person. I usually try to be positive on my blog, and my facebook page...but today...it's just not really there...Just really wanting answers. Now. So today is a blah day for me.

So, Where do I want to be in 5 years? Honestly? I have no idea.Five years from now...Ian will be 19, Macey 17, and Cade 13...Wow....I want to be in His Will.  I am open to just about anything. I just want to be doing life for my Lord. Serving in the mission field....whether it is Africa, or my community that I live in now. Five years from now, I don't want to look back and say....I wish I had just had the Faith to go. Faith to do what I know in my heart I was supposed to.

That interview I mentioned...I actually was offered the opportunity to work there. But the entire day today...had this feeling that it's not where I am supposed to be. So. I am just a girl. Praying for direction. Wanting more than anything to be where I am supposed to be. <3