Friday, April 20, 2012

It is what it is

Our children deal with so much. They come to us upset, and in search of an answer. We do our best to help them.  I remember the days when I could kiss them and hold them close, and it seemed to "fix everything" that was wrong in their world. As they get older, those things are bigger, and beyond what a momma can "fix". I wish I still could. It seems so unfair. I'm tired of things not "being fair", I'm tired of the broken hearts, and the tears shed because of hurt feelings....I'm tired of having to "put up with people" because life is handed to them on a silver platter, I'm tired of people judging others because of "status", or lack of "status". I get so frustrated with these things. And it seems like it is everywhere I turn. I'm tired of so much. I know I shouldn't fuss about things like this. But it's time to get it out. I know I can't fix it...And I don't need to. What needs to be "fixed" is my heart. These may be problems. But I need to let go of the bitterness, and give it to God. So this morning the kids and I  handed it over to our Father<3 We all prayed together this morning. Praying for guidance in each and every individual situation. We are all dealing with some things~and no, they might not yield in comparison to world hunger, or international peace. But to the precious people in my "circle"...they matter<3

But I KNOW that our God has a purpose for everything. We can learn from our situations. We can grow closer to the One who is in control of all things. And that is what He wants from us. He doesn't want us to attempt to handle it ourselves. Because when we do. We surely will fail. He wants us to come to Him, just as our children come to us. Not just because we are in a crisis. Not just because we need something. Not just because we are hurting. But simply because we trust Him. Love Him. Period. No matter the circumstances. These things are true for my kids, but also for me. I have been bitter about some things going on in my life here of late. Angry at people, situations, thinking things aren't fair. As I write that down, I realize even more, how I sound like a child. And this morning, I realized, I AM a child. Of the King. And He wants to comfort me, love me, listen, and more than anything, guide me. He is the way. I know. I want to find peace in the struggles our family has been dealing with. and I know He will give it. Sometimes, we find ourselves in a place we don't want to be in. We see so much more for our lives. Want SO much more. Tired of the waiting.... But this morning, finding hope in the "waiting room".

"We’re all in a waiting room of some sort – between where we’re at and where we’re headed. It’s how you respond in those waiting rooms that determine where you’ll go."~Pastor Steven Furtick

I want to live like that
And give it all I have
So that everything I say and do
Points to You
If love is who I am
Then this is where I stand
Recklessly abandoned
Never holding back
I want to live like that
I want to live like that

Am I proof
That You are who you say You are
That grace can really change a heart
Do I live like Your love is true

People pass
And even if they don't know my name
Is there evidence that I've been changed
When they see me, do they see You

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